I have been contemplating God this week. (What a novel idea!)
I wonder, how am I to love Him...How am I to respond to His grace...How am I to serve Him and His people? He is always teaching His children the lessons of life; His instruction is never at rest. I am so busy, caught in the constant uproar of my mind, that I often miss what He is trying to tell me. I am so often unsettled, unsatisfied with where I am or what I am doing; but, over the last few months, The Lord has revealed a small portion of His plan to me. He has ripped the scales off of my eyes. I can see that He wants to show me how to be content. I am to live in this moment, to savor what it brings...Yesterday is yesterday and tomorrow is tomorrow. I have no control (nor do I want any)over my circumstances, but I can choose to focus my attention, my energy, on what is good...On Who is good. He is also teaching me that the secret to contentment is trust.
Trust is a nasty word that has always been a challenge for me. There have been many who have compromised their goodstanding (for lack of a better word) in my history, and those incidents have caused me to become a questioner and oftentimes, a doubter. God's grace has always allowed me to forgive easily and for that I am grateful. Now, He turns my eyes to the chapter on trusting Him with everything. I recently found out, in a conversation with my dear mother, that I was a strong willed child.Who knew??? Not I, said the cat. I was under the impression all these years, that I was a perfect angel, the envy of all other mothers and the object of affection to all of my little peers. I was wrong. Apparently, I bossed everyone around, sent my friends home in tears, tried to parent my parents, and dressed myself-no matter how homeless I made myself look. I feel terrible. I think I still have a little in me. (oh no!)This attribute has made me strongly opinionated, a leader, and determined...among other things. Those characteristics, I have found, are both helpful and dangerous. They make me and they defeat me. Because "I can do anything I set my mind to," I forget that I can not do anything without the One who made me. And this is where the lesson began. I love to control my destiny...as many of us do. I often fear that I will be shortchanged in life if I do not step in and make sure all goes as planned. Oh, the tragedy...
When Jesus "tries to help," I know better. And when I fail to win the game, I collapse at his feet, begging for an explination. Everytime, I get the same answer,
"Trust me." I know that I will always be weak and I will always fail when working alone. But I also know that there is victory with Jesus and I am on the winning team.
So when I asked Him to show me how to live and love, He responded: "Matthew 6:9."
Pray like this: Our Father in Heaven, may your name be honored.
I wonder, how am I to love Him...How am I to respond to His grace...How am I to serve Him and His people? He is always teaching His children the lessons of life; His instruction is never at rest. I am so busy, caught in the constant uproar of my mind, that I often miss what He is trying to tell me. I am so often unsettled, unsatisfied with where I am or what I am doing; but, over the last few months, The Lord has revealed a small portion of His plan to me. He has ripped the scales off of my eyes. I can see that He wants to show me how to be content. I am to live in this moment, to savor what it brings...Yesterday is yesterday and tomorrow is tomorrow. I have no control (nor do I want any)over my circumstances, but I can choose to focus my attention, my energy, on what is good...On Who is good. He is also teaching me that the secret to contentment is trust.
Trust is a nasty word that has always been a challenge for me. There have been many who have compromised their goodstanding (for lack of a better word) in my history, and those incidents have caused me to become a questioner and oftentimes, a doubter. God's grace has always allowed me to forgive easily and for that I am grateful. Now, He turns my eyes to the chapter on trusting Him with everything. I recently found out, in a conversation with my dear mother, that I was a strong willed child.Who knew??? Not I, said the cat. I was under the impression all these years, that I was a perfect angel, the envy of all other mothers and the object of affection to all of my little peers. I was wrong. Apparently, I bossed everyone around, sent my friends home in tears, tried to parent my parents, and dressed myself-no matter how homeless I made myself look. I feel terrible. I think I still have a little in me. (oh no!)This attribute has made me strongly opinionated, a leader, and determined...among other things. Those characteristics, I have found, are both helpful and dangerous. They make me and they defeat me. Because "I can do anything I set my mind to," I forget that I can not do anything without the One who made me. And this is where the lesson began. I love to control my destiny...as many of us do. I often fear that I will be shortchanged in life if I do not step in and make sure all goes as planned. Oh, the tragedy...
When Jesus "tries to help," I know better. And when I fail to win the game, I collapse at his feet, begging for an explination. Everytime, I get the same answer,
"Trust me." I know that I will always be weak and I will always fail when working alone. But I also know that there is victory with Jesus and I am on the winning team.
So when I asked Him to show me how to live and love, He responded: "Matthew 6:9."
Pray like this: Our Father in Heaven, may your name be honored.
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