Just need to stop and breath...

Seconds fly by and all I can catch wind of are the blurry colors of thoughts, moments, words...Mumble jumble...In orbit around me. They swirl faster than I can comprehend and go by, nearly unnoticed. Trying hard to be all that I can be, I find myself intoxicated by circumstance. Who am I to be? Where am I to go? Who is reading into my life as if a tabloid from this morning's most popular stand? Happy, excited, scared, exhausted-simultaneous feelings swarm the core of me. I am patient, I am rash. I am confident, but apprehensive...Free, but a little David Bowie. How does life take such rapid turns when this whole time, the road has been straight and predictable? I am young-full of hope and dreams; Yet time stands still and I am 60 with five grandchildren and a legacy that I am mostly proud of. Still, I feel like a four year old full of energy, eyes lit with innocence and fearless. "What is going on," I ask myself. Where are you taking me, Lord? Speak clearly so that I know where to step. Please leave me a lantern. Eyes watch me like the piercing gaze of a hawk, waiting to see what I will do or say next. Many of my audience, I do not know, but their curiosities sizzle like a brand to the hide, reminding me of their power to burn me if I do wrong. "I trip and slide around. That's ok. At least I'm excited. It wasn't how I planned it. My feet are where I landed."

Life. whew...