July 20...long day, learned a lot...
Just found the new studio. Jong and Stacey greeted me at the door with huge hugs and smiles. But He, I think, was shocked to see me..not saying more than a few words. It was certainly awkward and difficult to feel the rift in that relationship, once solid and always growing. I'm devestated right now. I left after not even five minutes and had a good cry in Madison Sq. Park. I now sit in Starbucks on Park Ave. and am thinking of how I am facing a crossroad on my path in this very moment. My week alone in New York is obviously a test...a test to make me think and see how true I am. Can I do it, after all? Of course I can. I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength. Who am I, but a mere vessel-awaiting my instruction? All i can do is love people and obey God's voice. Thank you for pulling me from the mire and giving me strength to not depend on others for my future success. Jesus, you are my all in all. I will depend on you. With you, my path is straight, and I will be forever attatched to you. Salvation is mine. I will go forth, with the boldness of a lion. I will share my story with others. They will know of your salvation and they will call you blessed.
This is my movie-and yes, rain is even in the air...I wipe my tears and no one notices...but there is one whom I can not see that is collecting each one in a jar as an offering of praise. I praise you in my sorrows. I praise you in my victories. And today, Father, I claim victory. Not one will bring me down. Not ONE will discourage me. I will rise on the wings of eagles. I will run and not be weary. For even when the grass withers and when the flowers fade, I will hold my head high and rejoice, for the victory is mine in The Lord. BRING IT ON!!
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The above was written at the beginning of today. I paid a visit to my Mentor in Design, who has been a part of my life since before I was born. Today was the first time any of us have seen him in a while. No details are needed.
All I wanted was to say hello and catch up a bit. Unfortunately, I experienced my first "burn" today. It took a ride down 12 floors in the elevator for me to realize that I had two choices. One, I could allow my situation to control my future. How easy would it be to give way to crumbled hopes and dreams for this one moment in time? Answer: EXTREMELY EASY.
Choice two: I could contiue to allow Mr. to be the propeller behind my ship of ambition. So, I took a few deep breaths, and stood up straight and headed down Park Avenue toward Madison. Praying the whole way to 590 Madison, I decided to channel my frustration and upsetness (for lack of a better word) into making contacts. Six blocks later, I entered the massive sky scraper and made my way past security to the 27th floor, where I spoke with the assistant of the CEO of a global company. It went well.
And so the day continued. Life goes on. My prayers are aimed toward repair.
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Be encouraged. Even in your biggest dissapointments, know that you walk on ground already given to you by Your Father. Be strong and courageous. Show grace and receive grace. Godspeed.
Just found the new studio. Jong and Stacey greeted me at the door with huge hugs and smiles. But He, I think, was shocked to see me..not saying more than a few words. It was certainly awkward and difficult to feel the rift in that relationship, once solid and always growing. I'm devestated right now. I left after not even five minutes and had a good cry in Madison Sq. Park. I now sit in Starbucks on Park Ave. and am thinking of how I am facing a crossroad on my path in this very moment. My week alone in New York is obviously a test...a test to make me think and see how true I am. Can I do it, after all? Of course I can. I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength. Who am I, but a mere vessel-awaiting my instruction? All i can do is love people and obey God's voice. Thank you for pulling me from the mire and giving me strength to not depend on others for my future success. Jesus, you are my all in all. I will depend on you. With you, my path is straight, and I will be forever attatched to you. Salvation is mine. I will go forth, with the boldness of a lion. I will share my story with others. They will know of your salvation and they will call you blessed.
This is my movie-and yes, rain is even in the air...I wipe my tears and no one notices...but there is one whom I can not see that is collecting each one in a jar as an offering of praise. I praise you in my sorrows. I praise you in my victories. And today, Father, I claim victory. Not one will bring me down. Not ONE will discourage me. I will rise on the wings of eagles. I will run and not be weary. For even when the grass withers and when the flowers fade, I will hold my head high and rejoice, for the victory is mine in The Lord. BRING IT ON!!
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The above was written at the beginning of today. I paid a visit to my Mentor in Design, who has been a part of my life since before I was born. Today was the first time any of us have seen him in a while. No details are needed.
All I wanted was to say hello and catch up a bit. Unfortunately, I experienced my first "burn" today. It took a ride down 12 floors in the elevator for me to realize that I had two choices. One, I could allow my situation to control my future. How easy would it be to give way to crumbled hopes and dreams for this one moment in time? Answer: EXTREMELY EASY.
Choice two: I could contiue to allow Mr. to be the propeller behind my ship of ambition. So, I took a few deep breaths, and stood up straight and headed down Park Avenue toward Madison. Praying the whole way to 590 Madison, I decided to channel my frustration and upsetness (for lack of a better word) into making contacts. Six blocks later, I entered the massive sky scraper and made my way past security to the 27th floor, where I spoke with the assistant of the CEO of a global company. It went well.
And so the day continued. Life goes on. My prayers are aimed toward repair.
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Be encouraged. Even in your biggest dissapointments, know that you walk on ground already given to you by Your Father. Be strong and courageous. Show grace and receive grace. Godspeed.
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